butch walker

is a genius. Seriously, I listened to his new cd today and kfjldjf I haven't listened to a CD that made me feel like this in quite awhile.
Every single song is beyond amazing.
It's crazy that he's older than my mom and dad though.

So I went to sleep at 10:30 last night and woke up 1:30 today. That is 15 hours of sleep. I'm positive I've caught up on rest now, so there is no excuse for me to be lazy this week.

At 5 I went to work and got off at 7:40.
I read some of eclipse and it makes me feel bad for every real guy because so many girls are in love with Edward now and there is no way they can compare to that character.

black friday

So I called Cynthia about 50 times rying to wake her up. haha

It ended up being just my mom and me.

Best thing about the day?

this really cute boy in hot topic.



oh and we ate at cracker barrel mmmm. I saw this guy there that I swear I know but couldn't figure it out. It was one of things where when you look at them trying to figure out how you know them, they're doing the same.



I tried to watch the love guru but dkfjdl dumbest thing ever.

Dance until the band stops playing, sing with all your might.

I love holidays.

Tomorrow Cynthia and I are going shopping, so we have to wake up at like 3:30.
I'm excited.

Life is good right now. It's like something just clicked into place yesterday and I'm feeling a lot better than I have lately. I don't even think I realized how down I was getting.

I miss my Ipod.

finally

i caught up on blogs :]

so i've been very lazy lately, all i want to do is sleep, eat, and read.
I'm ok with it though because I really feel like I need to catch up on rest.

i've been obsessed with love stories lately
and the john mayer song "love song for no one" has never made more sense to me :[

i think i'm going to watch twilight with hanna tomorrow :]
stooooked

shell

i've never felt so weak, confused, and dead in my life

i walked around all day and felt like i wasn't even alive
i couldn't see straight and forgot what i was doing most of the time, it was kind of scary
to be honest


but the bigger lights are coming to greensboro in january :]

just to clear up the rumors

I was supposed to meet Brenda and Areli at the mall for our project but I was running late. I looked for them with no luck so DJ and I just looked around. I saw Matthew from En Serenade, it was funny bc Cynthia has saw him there before also.

We decided to get something to eat and ended up going to San Felipe in Asheboro. We saw his girlfriend's sister. It was funny to me.

I went back to Mom's house and then to work at 5. I worked for 2 hours then went to Cynthia's house. We watched Clique. It was cheesy but I actually sorta liked it haha.
Oh and just in case anyone is wondering, Cynthia and I are not dating. bahahahaha.

Aferwards, I went home and watched The Woodies. We decided that we're going next year and I'm really excited.
I have this weird feeling about All Time Low. IDK

i gave in

So I took Cameron and Zachary to walmart. I bought more burritos and coffee. Not starbucks though. I bought a self-heating mocha latte. Delicious.
I gave in and bought twilight. Best/worst purchase of my life.

I'll stay to the west.

Huge update either tonight or tomorrow.

coffee and burritos

Woke up. Locked keys in my cars. Got keys from grandparents house. Ate at Cracker Barrel with mom and Cameron. Work at 4-10. Went to wal-mart and bought burritos and starbucks frapp.

tassssty day
i love cracker barrel
i love burritos
i love starbucks

how convenient

is it that my mom lives 5 minutes from tokyo express?

Rest is for the dead? I'm dead.

First day I actually got to relax in a week.
It was nice.

"what do you think of when I say moon?" "shine!"

I went on a field trip with Calculus to A&T University.
The best part was eating at Olive Garden.
I sat with Hanna on the bus our we had our normal, weird conversations.

Work afterwards.

Busy.

No school. :]
Work from 12-4. :[

After work, Cynthia called me and we decided to go to Winston Salem to see Romeo and Angel and go to a show.
Before I left, my dad told me "don't go to greensboro or anything".
I obeyed and went to Winston Salem instead hahaha.
Anyways, we get a little lost trying to get to Angel's place but when we got there we had nachos and then went to the show.
It sucked because the show was supposed to start at 7 but ended up starting after 8 and we had to leave before 8:30(idonthaveafter9s). Yearling was supposed to play first but they let some crappy local band play. uggggh. We had to leave without seeing Yearling, The Goodnight Anthem, or Settings. It sucked.

Oh and I didn't get home til 9:30. My dad "punished" me by saying "don't ask to go to cynthia's anytime soon" ooookay

oh and we got a little lost trying to get on the highway from winston haha

Back to real life.

I woke up and was not ready for the weekend to end so I decided to only go to 3rd block.

Later, I had dinner with my Dad and brother.

nachos>sushi?

Cynthia and I woke up at about 10 or 11. We went down stairs and watched some old music videos and rewatched Donnie Darko.
I love that movie more and more each time I see it. Apparently, there's supposed to be a sequel about his little sister, not too sure how I feel about that.
At around 4, we decide to get dressed and go eat at Sushi Republic. I was excited because I've never had sushi. Anyways, we get there and it's closed. We got lost trying to get back to freeman mill road.
Basically, we end up eating nachos and fries at Logan's Roadhouse.
It was great.
but i'd have to say the greatest part of the evening was our sing along to Brand New :]

weddings and protest marches go hand in hand

This was probably one of the longest days ever and so much happened so I'm just going to list them:
-We woke up at around 8 to go help Cynthia's mom and Ivan get the decorations ready. We made this really sweet archway thing.
-Cynthia, her brothers, Abraham, and I went to pick up my car since we had to leave it in Greensboro. Honestly, I have never been so nervous about anything in my life. Well, almost anything.
-When we were leaving the parking deck in greensboro, there was a protest march thing right in front of us so we had to wait til it was over.
-Cynthia and I went to walmart. We saw Mr. Gillim(no idea how to spell his name) but he was our gym teacher in middle school. hahaha
-Took a shower.
-Went to walmart.
-Got dressed in our "wedding attire".
-Went to walmart.
-Finished getting everything ready back at her house.
-Went to walmart.
-Finally, left for the wedding. On the way there someone calls Cynthia and tells her that the protest thing is on one of the streets close to the wedding. Seriously, what are the chances?
-I drop off Cynthia and then go park and go into the building. I felt kind of crazy going in at first because no one would open the door, I was carrying 3 purses and two coats, and I was searching for a table with a silk table cloth(there wasn't one) hahaha.
-The wedding happened. It was nice.
-Dancing. I actually didn't dance though. What a wallflower. ha
-Afterwards, we went back to her house with some of her family and friends. We tried to find a movie but we couldn't decide on anything so by the end everyone was asleep. We started watching Donnie Darko and it was pretty much only Cynthia, Romeo, and me watching and then shortly after just Romeo. Cynthia woke me up so we could go sleep in her bedroom. If we had stayed asleep in the living room, we probably wouldn't have been able to move in the morning because we were in the most awkard positions haha.

Took me long enough to post this...

scared but independent

So I was just sitting around at about 6 when I thought HEY! I think i'll go shopping by myself. I felt like being independent. If you know me, you know that I get really anxious doing stuff on my own. So, this was supposed to be a tiny way to try to change that. At first I was going to go to target in High Point but decided to go to this shopping center I had never been to in greensboro(i think). All I knew is that they had starbucks.
Well I'm driving and it's so peaceful. I was listening to Something Corporate and it was perfect. Anyways, apparently I was supposed to take a right at the fork but I took a left and ended up at this shopping center that was made up of a grocery store and a dollar store. I didn't feeling like turning around though, so I said HEY! i'll just keep driving until I find some interesting store in the middle of the night on a street I've never been. It sounded like a good idea at the time, honestly. Well at first it was just kind of this rural town then it turned into this really busy place and then this really scary ghetto looking place. Eventually, it somehow turned into a highway and this point I'm saying HEY! i have no idea how to get back now, shit. I actually said shit, and I NEVER cuss. Everything turned around when I saw a sign that said I was on Edgeworth St. So I said HEY, I know where I am and there is this sweet show at Greene Street today, maybe I should go. So I park and walk down to Greene Street(at this point I'm like man, i'm so independent right now, this is awesome. plus I saw Zach from Sullivan :]) Well, apparently I accidently grabbed a 5 instead of a 20 and didnt realize it until the guy working there gave it back to me. Embarrassing to say the least. Well, I turn around and head back to my car when I start feeling in pockets for my keys and FUCK!! SHIT!FUCK!(i actually said this, and like I said I NEVER cuss) I was talking to Cynthia at this time and she says that she can come and get me. We hang up and I go to my car. At this point I'm crying so hard because I'm alone in downtown greensboro on a friday night and I locked my keys and my money(except for the 5) in my car. Plus, noone in my family knows i'm there. Cynthia calls back and says that she'll talk to me so I'm not as scared. I get bored and hot standing in the parking deck so I walk up and down the stairs and down greene street, at one point I said "ok, if you were shawn from the matches, where would you be right now?" and she says "actually, i'd probably be watching the show" so after that I gave up looking for him. Well, Cynthia gets there with Abraham, and her 2 brothers and I still feel like an idiot.

I just have to say that as much as that situation sucked, in a lot of ways I'm glad it happened. I don't know, I mean I always knew that Cynthia is a great friend(understatement). She's the best friend I've ever had. This proved it though because she was at her mom's pre-wedding dinner and was supposed to be getting her hair done for the wedding but she still left and rescued(i thought that word was appropriate haha)me. If you read this, I love you and thanks.

The rest of the night went pretty much like this-
cynthia got her extensions
we went to her mom's lingerie
went to her house
watched livelavalive videos
then bed.

i fell in love with a ship

so thanks to greene street i have been re-introduced to i am the avalanche and can not stop listening to them
i really don't see how you can't like their music
that along with ace enders and eatmewhileimhot(nevershoutnever hilarious side project) is all i want to listen to

Jordan and I went to the mall to find shoes for me to wear to Cynthia's mom's wedding. dkfjdk still didn't find any.

afterwards we ate tokyo express though :]. we got it to go and ate in the car.

so before we left we stopped to get gas and apparently my car can only hold $20 dollars now because I paid for $30 and while Jordan was pumping it we start hearing something leaking and then pouring. yea, the gas was overflowing and going EVERYWHERE. we freaked. haha but I had to go in and get my change back.
sweeeeet.

I still can't believe I saw freakin Ace Enders.

p.s-i feel like a genius in calculus hahaha dork

a camera doesn't make you a photographer

a photographer makes a camera? haha
lame
but seriously it bothers me when there are about 10 "photographers" at one show
especially when it's a show at a small venue

i mean heck, maybe i should go buy a camera and stand on the side of the stage and take pictures that ANYONE could take
ok maybe not anyone but most people


don't ask why this bothers me so much
all I know is that it does and the fact that it bothers me actually bothers me
that probably doesnt make sense

anyways, i have love/hate relationships with all types of love songs (happy-lovey dovey or sad lost love) because I can't relate at all
not even a little bit to either
it was the worst feeling in the world, i honestly feel empty thinking about it


ps-i'm actually in a good mood

memorable

I have a feeling this is going to be a very memorable day.

The election was obviously today and at this point Obama has won!
I'm happy about that.

but we went to the show today dfkjdlf ammmazing.
nevershoutnever!-so much fun and adorable
playradioplay!-you could tell he was so nervous when he would talk between songs aww! and he played my favorite song from his cd plus my other favorites. decipher reflections from reality was the first song i ever heard by him and I can remember the day I heard sooo vividly.
ace enders-i'm speechless, he's amazing.
hellogoodbye-they definitely lived up to my expectations. they were so cheesy and funny though

it was a great night overall

how i could just kill a man

I made a 90 on the calculus test bahahaha, she did the weirdest grading ever but it worked to my advantage so i'm fine with it.

after school I went grocery shopping with grandma and then Cynthia and I(my car is fixed!) went to take her mom a cd at work and to get our best friends necklaces from the mall

i cannot wait til tomorrow!

i'm watching crossroads right now, i still love this movie
i don't care i don't care

i can't wait

hellogoodbye,ace enders, play radio play and nevershoutnever! on tuesday!!!
i can't wait

1.i've loved hellogoodbye since the summer of 8th grade and i'll probably faint when i see them
2.i loved the early november sooo much and never got to see them. plus, the song bring back love(2020) makes me cry it's so pretty and i'll probably cry when he sings it.
3.i went through a huge playradioplay period, it's going to be weird actually seeing him
4.well nevershoutnever! was so good last time i saw him and his music so cute :]

and then friday bayside, the matches, and valencia
i'd cry if i saw any of those bands
you have no idea

saturday

i worked for 1 1/2 hours
that's about 9 dollars
sweeeeet, not

my mom and i watched this show where this couple was saving there first kiss for marriage, it was hilarious
it wasn't supposed to be hilarious but it was

halloween

no school
work at 2-4

so cynthia and i were going to go trick or treating but my car's breaks had to stop working ugh
they should have them fixed by monday though unless it needs a new part(which it probably does :[)
i was really sad about not being able to go though
instead i went to her house and we attempted to make videos
we painted our faces and teased our hair
and we actually figured out how all of the scene-myspace kids did their hair 2/3 years ago
it was an eye opening experience
after that we ate pasta and watched hard candy

good night :]