i've never smiled so much

i saw taking back sunday on wednesday

it had to be my favorite show by far, i mean i've loved that band since I was 12!

and i'm pretty sure we sat next to adam's parents afterwards haha

overreaction?

i don't know but it hurts. my heart hurts and it's racing faster than it ever has. it's funny because this probably isn't about what you think it is.

i hate this.

...

it's the unexpected warm days in the midst of below freezing weather that make me realize how much i truly hate the cold/winter
it's not the winter that i hate really, it's moreso the feeling that comes along with it

ever since about 6th or 7th grade i've gotten, for the lack of a better word, pretty depressed or at least just down
i don't know why but i really didnt think that it was going to happen this year or should i say that it was happening until last night
it actually felt warm and my heart began to flutter, it felt like this huge weight was lifted off me
ok, I know that sounds cheesy but it's kind of hard to explain

i hate this feeling, it feels like 500 pounds of books are just lying on my chest

also, night is a bad time for me unless i'm actually out doing something or even just watching a movie(basically anything that prevents me from thinking)because i'm the person who pretty much keeps everything inside and by the end of the day i start thinking about everything and that weight feels so much heavier on my chest

it's weird because i'm usually content with just thinking about things and pondering about life but at night it's like everything dark and negative just creeps into my thoughts


at this very second, it's worse than it has been in a while because the weight usually goes away (kinda a back and forth kind of thing) but it's just stuck so i'm going to get this off my chest-

one thing i constantly think about is how i've never had anything close to a relationship, what's worse is that i don't think i've ever met anyone i've been that attracted to(physically yes, but nothing past that) and what i think bothers me the most is that i know that there are guys out there that i would want something with, they're just not here. that's what leaves me with this sense of helplessness because i want someone
i
really
really
do









i'm pretty sure i've had myself convinced for the past 3 or 4 years that i didn't
but if i want something i can't stop lying to myself, i have to make it happen or let it happen
whichever.

butch walker

is a genius. Seriously, I listened to his new cd today and kfjldjf I haven't listened to a CD that made me feel like this in quite awhile.
Every single song is beyond amazing.
It's crazy that he's older than my mom and dad though.

So I went to sleep at 10:30 last night and woke up 1:30 today. That is 15 hours of sleep. I'm positive I've caught up on rest now, so there is no excuse for me to be lazy this week.

At 5 I went to work and got off at 7:40.
I read some of eclipse and it makes me feel bad for every real guy because so many girls are in love with Edward now and there is no way they can compare to that character.

black friday

So I called Cynthia about 50 times rying to wake her up. haha

It ended up being just my mom and me.

Best thing about the day?

this really cute boy in hot topic.



oh and we ate at cracker barrel mmmm. I saw this guy there that I swear I know but couldn't figure it out. It was one of things where when you look at them trying to figure out how you know them, they're doing the same.



I tried to watch the love guru but dkfjdl dumbest thing ever.

Dance until the band stops playing, sing with all your might.

I love holidays.

Tomorrow Cynthia and I are going shopping, so we have to wake up at like 3:30.
I'm excited.

Life is good right now. It's like something just clicked into place yesterday and I'm feeling a lot better than I have lately. I don't even think I realized how down I was getting.

I miss my Ipod.

finally

i caught up on blogs :]

so i've been very lazy lately, all i want to do is sleep, eat, and read.
I'm ok with it though because I really feel like I need to catch up on rest.

i've been obsessed with love stories lately
and the john mayer song "love song for no one" has never made more sense to me :[

i think i'm going to watch twilight with hanna tomorrow :]
stooooked

shell

i've never felt so weak, confused, and dead in my life

i walked around all day and felt like i wasn't even alive
i couldn't see straight and forgot what i was doing most of the time, it was kind of scary
to be honest


but the bigger lights are coming to greensboro in january :]

just to clear up the rumors

I was supposed to meet Brenda and Areli at the mall for our project but I was running late. I looked for them with no luck so DJ and I just looked around. I saw Matthew from En Serenade, it was funny bc Cynthia has saw him there before also.

We decided to get something to eat and ended up going to San Felipe in Asheboro. We saw his girlfriend's sister. It was funny to me.

I went back to Mom's house and then to work at 5. I worked for 2 hours then went to Cynthia's house. We watched Clique. It was cheesy but I actually sorta liked it haha.
Oh and just in case anyone is wondering, Cynthia and I are not dating. bahahahaha.

Aferwards, I went home and watched The Woodies. We decided that we're going next year and I'm really excited.
I have this weird feeling about All Time Low. IDK

i gave in

So I took Cameron and Zachary to walmart. I bought more burritos and coffee. Not starbucks though. I bought a self-heating mocha latte. Delicious.
I gave in and bought twilight. Best/worst purchase of my life.

I'll stay to the west.

Huge update either tonight or tomorrow.

coffee and burritos

Woke up. Locked keys in my cars. Got keys from grandparents house. Ate at Cracker Barrel with mom and Cameron. Work at 4-10. Went to wal-mart and bought burritos and starbucks frapp.

tassssty day
i love cracker barrel
i love burritos
i love starbucks

how convenient

is it that my mom lives 5 minutes from tokyo express?

Rest is for the dead? I'm dead.

First day I actually got to relax in a week.
It was nice.

"what do you think of when I say moon?" "shine!"

I went on a field trip with Calculus to A&T University.
The best part was eating at Olive Garden.
I sat with Hanna on the bus our we had our normal, weird conversations.

Work afterwards.

Busy.

No school. :]
Work from 12-4. :[

After work, Cynthia called me and we decided to go to Winston Salem to see Romeo and Angel and go to a show.
Before I left, my dad told me "don't go to greensboro or anything".
I obeyed and went to Winston Salem instead hahaha.
Anyways, we get a little lost trying to get to Angel's place but when we got there we had nachos and then went to the show.
It sucked because the show was supposed to start at 7 but ended up starting after 8 and we had to leave before 8:30(idonthaveafter9s). Yearling was supposed to play first but they let some crappy local band play. uggggh. We had to leave without seeing Yearling, The Goodnight Anthem, or Settings. It sucked.

Oh and I didn't get home til 9:30. My dad "punished" me by saying "don't ask to go to cynthia's anytime soon" ooookay

oh and we got a little lost trying to get on the highway from winston haha

Back to real life.

I woke up and was not ready for the weekend to end so I decided to only go to 3rd block.

Later, I had dinner with my Dad and brother.

nachos>sushi?

Cynthia and I woke up at about 10 or 11. We went down stairs and watched some old music videos and rewatched Donnie Darko.
I love that movie more and more each time I see it. Apparently, there's supposed to be a sequel about his little sister, not too sure how I feel about that.
At around 4, we decide to get dressed and go eat at Sushi Republic. I was excited because I've never had sushi. Anyways, we get there and it's closed. We got lost trying to get back to freeman mill road.
Basically, we end up eating nachos and fries at Logan's Roadhouse.
It was great.
but i'd have to say the greatest part of the evening was our sing along to Brand New :]

weddings and protest marches go hand in hand

This was probably one of the longest days ever and so much happened so I'm just going to list them:
-We woke up at around 8 to go help Cynthia's mom and Ivan get the decorations ready. We made this really sweet archway thing.
-Cynthia, her brothers, Abraham, and I went to pick up my car since we had to leave it in Greensboro. Honestly, I have never been so nervous about anything in my life. Well, almost anything.
-When we were leaving the parking deck in greensboro, there was a protest march thing right in front of us so we had to wait til it was over.
-Cynthia and I went to walmart. We saw Mr. Gillim(no idea how to spell his name) but he was our gym teacher in middle school. hahaha
-Took a shower.
-Went to walmart.
-Got dressed in our "wedding attire".
-Went to walmart.
-Finished getting everything ready back at her house.
-Went to walmart.
-Finally, left for the wedding. On the way there someone calls Cynthia and tells her that the protest thing is on one of the streets close to the wedding. Seriously, what are the chances?
-I drop off Cynthia and then go park and go into the building. I felt kind of crazy going in at first because no one would open the door, I was carrying 3 purses and two coats, and I was searching for a table with a silk table cloth(there wasn't one) hahaha.
-The wedding happened. It was nice.
-Dancing. I actually didn't dance though. What a wallflower. ha
-Afterwards, we went back to her house with some of her family and friends. We tried to find a movie but we couldn't decide on anything so by the end everyone was asleep. We started watching Donnie Darko and it was pretty much only Cynthia, Romeo, and me watching and then shortly after just Romeo. Cynthia woke me up so we could go sleep in her bedroom. If we had stayed asleep in the living room, we probably wouldn't have been able to move in the morning because we were in the most awkard positions haha.

Took me long enough to post this...

scared but independent

So I was just sitting around at about 6 when I thought HEY! I think i'll go shopping by myself. I felt like being independent. If you know me, you know that I get really anxious doing stuff on my own. So, this was supposed to be a tiny way to try to change that. At first I was going to go to target in High Point but decided to go to this shopping center I had never been to in greensboro(i think). All I knew is that they had starbucks.
Well I'm driving and it's so peaceful. I was listening to Something Corporate and it was perfect. Anyways, apparently I was supposed to take a right at the fork but I took a left and ended up at this shopping center that was made up of a grocery store and a dollar store. I didn't feeling like turning around though, so I said HEY! i'll just keep driving until I find some interesting store in the middle of the night on a street I've never been. It sounded like a good idea at the time, honestly. Well at first it was just kind of this rural town then it turned into this really busy place and then this really scary ghetto looking place. Eventually, it somehow turned into a highway and this point I'm saying HEY! i have no idea how to get back now, shit. I actually said shit, and I NEVER cuss. Everything turned around when I saw a sign that said I was on Edgeworth St. So I said HEY, I know where I am and there is this sweet show at Greene Street today, maybe I should go. So I park and walk down to Greene Street(at this point I'm like man, i'm so independent right now, this is awesome. plus I saw Zach from Sullivan :]) Well, apparently I accidently grabbed a 5 instead of a 20 and didnt realize it until the guy working there gave it back to me. Embarrassing to say the least. Well, I turn around and head back to my car when I start feeling in pockets for my keys and FUCK!! SHIT!FUCK!(i actually said this, and like I said I NEVER cuss) I was talking to Cynthia at this time and she says that she can come and get me. We hang up and I go to my car. At this point I'm crying so hard because I'm alone in downtown greensboro on a friday night and I locked my keys and my money(except for the 5) in my car. Plus, noone in my family knows i'm there. Cynthia calls back and says that she'll talk to me so I'm not as scared. I get bored and hot standing in the parking deck so I walk up and down the stairs and down greene street, at one point I said "ok, if you were shawn from the matches, where would you be right now?" and she says "actually, i'd probably be watching the show" so after that I gave up looking for him. Well, Cynthia gets there with Abraham, and her 2 brothers and I still feel like an idiot.

I just have to say that as much as that situation sucked, in a lot of ways I'm glad it happened. I don't know, I mean I always knew that Cynthia is a great friend(understatement). She's the best friend I've ever had. This proved it though because she was at her mom's pre-wedding dinner and was supposed to be getting her hair done for the wedding but she still left and rescued(i thought that word was appropriate haha)me. If you read this, I love you and thanks.

The rest of the night went pretty much like this-
cynthia got her extensions
we went to her mom's lingerie
went to her house
watched livelavalive videos
then bed.

i fell in love with a ship

so thanks to greene street i have been re-introduced to i am the avalanche and can not stop listening to them
i really don't see how you can't like their music
that along with ace enders and eatmewhileimhot(nevershoutnever hilarious side project) is all i want to listen to

Jordan and I went to the mall to find shoes for me to wear to Cynthia's mom's wedding. dkfjdk still didn't find any.

afterwards we ate tokyo express though :]. we got it to go and ate in the car.

so before we left we stopped to get gas and apparently my car can only hold $20 dollars now because I paid for $30 and while Jordan was pumping it we start hearing something leaking and then pouring. yea, the gas was overflowing and going EVERYWHERE. we freaked. haha but I had to go in and get my change back.
sweeeeet.

I still can't believe I saw freakin Ace Enders.

p.s-i feel like a genius in calculus hahaha dork

a camera doesn't make you a photographer

a photographer makes a camera? haha
lame
but seriously it bothers me when there are about 10 "photographers" at one show
especially when it's a show at a small venue

i mean heck, maybe i should go buy a camera and stand on the side of the stage and take pictures that ANYONE could take
ok maybe not anyone but most people


don't ask why this bothers me so much
all I know is that it does and the fact that it bothers me actually bothers me
that probably doesnt make sense

anyways, i have love/hate relationships with all types of love songs (happy-lovey dovey or sad lost love) because I can't relate at all
not even a little bit to either
it was the worst feeling in the world, i honestly feel empty thinking about it


ps-i'm actually in a good mood

memorable

I have a feeling this is going to be a very memorable day.

The election was obviously today and at this point Obama has won!
I'm happy about that.

but we went to the show today dfkjdlf ammmazing.
nevershoutnever!-so much fun and adorable
playradioplay!-you could tell he was so nervous when he would talk between songs aww! and he played my favorite song from his cd plus my other favorites. decipher reflections from reality was the first song i ever heard by him and I can remember the day I heard sooo vividly.
ace enders-i'm speechless, he's amazing.
hellogoodbye-they definitely lived up to my expectations. they were so cheesy and funny though

it was a great night overall

how i could just kill a man

I made a 90 on the calculus test bahahaha, she did the weirdest grading ever but it worked to my advantage so i'm fine with it.

after school I went grocery shopping with grandma and then Cynthia and I(my car is fixed!) went to take her mom a cd at work and to get our best friends necklaces from the mall

i cannot wait til tomorrow!

i'm watching crossroads right now, i still love this movie
i don't care i don't care

i can't wait

hellogoodbye,ace enders, play radio play and nevershoutnever! on tuesday!!!
i can't wait

1.i've loved hellogoodbye since the summer of 8th grade and i'll probably faint when i see them
2.i loved the early november sooo much and never got to see them. plus, the song bring back love(2020) makes me cry it's so pretty and i'll probably cry when he sings it.
3.i went through a huge playradioplay period, it's going to be weird actually seeing him
4.well nevershoutnever! was so good last time i saw him and his music so cute :]

and then friday bayside, the matches, and valencia
i'd cry if i saw any of those bands
you have no idea

saturday

i worked for 1 1/2 hours
that's about 9 dollars
sweeeeet, not

my mom and i watched this show where this couple was saving there first kiss for marriage, it was hilarious
it wasn't supposed to be hilarious but it was

halloween

no school
work at 2-4

so cynthia and i were going to go trick or treating but my car's breaks had to stop working ugh
they should have them fixed by monday though unless it needs a new part(which it probably does :[)
i was really sad about not being able to go though
instead i went to her house and we attempted to make videos
we painted our faces and teased our hair
and we actually figured out how all of the scene-myspace kids did their hair 2/3 years ago
it was an eye opening experience
after that we ate pasta and watched hard candy

good night :]

personality

Considerate Creator

pickles and onions? ohhh peppers and onions!

the calculus test was ridiculous and I know I failed ugh

so something in my car burst and now my breaks don't work
my grandpa and dad are going to fix it tomorrow though

i had to go to work at 5 and got off at 9:30
it was so weird actually working on a week night
but kdjfld i don't work on halloween, I am so going trick or treating!

I hope you're happy now.

Cynthia and I went dress shopping for her mom's wedding. kdfjld, i can never find one.
but yea, our day consisted of the following-
youtube videos(livelavalive)
photobooths
cookies with faces on a stick
chick-fil-a and sitting at the most inconveniant table
making videos in my car to the morning light and 3oh3
wal-mart and a million trick or treaters

after I dropped her off I decided that I just wanted to go driving. So I did. I listened to Bayside right before I got home and it was perfect.

Nevershoutnever! on tuesday! can not wait.

Monday

After school I feel asleep at 2:30 and didn't wake up til 6:30. I called Cynthia and she told me to come to her brothers band concert so I left like 10 minutes later. I swear I was still asleep when I got there.
It was so strange being in those halls. I mean it's been literally 4 years since I've been there.
After that we ran to my car and started driving to her house. Her mom called and said that they decided to go to McDonalds so we turned around and went.

that's that.

Sunday

I worked for 2 hours in the morning and apparently some of the clocks had changed by mistake so when I was leaving work I had no idea what time it was. I was call everyone to find out haha

Later, Micha and I went to walmart and then to get pizza from sir pizza..

whatever.

I don't believe that you're alright.

Woke up at 11 and spent most of the day just being lazy.
I lost my keys somewhere in my mom's house so grandpa had to bring the extra so I could drive to work. I worked from 6-9:30. It was ok.

I was listening to The Morning Light's new cd on the way home. It's definitely a late night driving cd. I sat in my car for a few minutes when I got home just listening to it and thinking about everything. Everything is going to change soon. I'm excited. Scared also. I'm going to be 18 in 5 months! That's unbelievable to me.

I can't wait to get out of here.

No internet.

The internet at my mom's house isn't working so I was unable to post yesterday.
I worked for 2 hours then DJ and I went to my mom's house. We picked up Tokyo Express before hand. :]
I watched new Degrassi episodes and started to miss the old cast. It's weird that most of the cast is younger than me
Watched Icarly and I still love Spencer. If I ever met the guy who plays him I'm probably die.
Watched a documentary about James Dean. I cryed ALOT. It's just weird that I can relate to someone from 5 decades ago like that. I never knew that we only had like 3 movies and died only 18 months after he moved to hollywood. It's amazing that he's such an icon when he was around for such a small amount of time. It's very inspiring. I need to watch Rebel Without a Cause.

I called Cynthia later and we talked about our living arrangments when we move to California. I get more and more excited for this everyday. It seems realer and realer everyday.

you've got to run right back to the start

went to school
went to work
then to the mall with DJ and Jordan
almost got lost in greensboro
saw many people i haven't seen in 4 years
bought manchester orchestra cd

real post soon

wednesday

summer asked if she could call lisa "obama momma momma" haha

i refuse to talk politics

tuesday

i missed 2 days blah

i've been reading too many blogs which is causing me to neglect my own

dorrrk

blogblogblog

i am obsessed with blogs
i've started to read so many

i ate mexican food today yum :]

headband

my titles are also random.
i can't think of anything so I just look around and sound out the name of everything i see and whatever sounds right i type it.

I go to work at 6 and afterwards I'm going to my mom's house.

Micha bought me a bracelet from nascar days, it's cute.

I want to see steel train, dear and the headlights, copeland, lovedrug, lydia, socratic, and house of fools next week. that's 3 different shows and I better get to go to at least one of them.

you were better before you got better than me

woke up at 5:30 and thought I was going to puke
thankfully I didn't

8:00-went to the elementary school. little kids are so cute :]
9:30-went to school
1:30-home to eat
2:00-work
8:30-home

busy busy busy
my feet hurt, my back hurts

i like his smile.

today

the kindergartners are so cute :]

DJ, Jordan, and I went to high point. I lost my keys in target. Thankfully someone turned them in. Went to 3 stores looking for chex mix. haha

yea, that's it

yesterday.

to get our minds off of the show we went to four seasons.
we tryed going to hooters and got lost, when we finally got there it was packed so we just went to wendys instead.

i bought set your goals cd.

this is for yesterday.

I all I have to say is fuck sold out shows.

I checked the tickets at 12 and they were still available. When my mom finally decides she'll take us to see Every Avenue and The Maine, I get online. Guess what? sold out.
It was only 5 hours later.

I've got all the drugs in the world.

I didn't forget today!

today was pretty simple.
wake up-school-eat-sleep-internet-gossip girl

random stuff-
i usually only wear v-necks, gray, purple, or my cardigan.
oh and band tees.

I'm thinking of cutting a person out of my life or at least not talking to them as much. This person, whom I've been friends with since middle school always has to say things that arn't neccessary to me. I don't know it's just getting plain rude and I really don't care if she says she's joking. She knows that it makes me mad. Honestly I never get mad. Ever.
and I've gotten mad at her at least 5 times. Like mad where I want to slap her.
I can understand the reason why her sister treats her the way she does...

October 12

hahaha I forgot to post yesterday for yesterday. This is getting ridiculous.

So my mom and I ended up watching Nights in Rondanth. It was pretty good. My mom was crying when we were leaving haha. There are some cute guys who work at the mall.
As soon as we got home I took Zach and Cameron to the mall. It was fun. I bought them cookies, they played in the gameroom and some how we managed to spend over 2 hours there. Then we left and ate at Tokyo Express. It was good but made me and Zach feel a bit sick.
I saw this guy there that I had saw at the mall. It was funny.

We went home afterwards. Then me and DJ left for Dad's house.
That was pretty much my entire day.

We better go to the show wednesday because we were talking about it last night and I have an amazing plan haha. We're so manipulative.

October 11

ahhh so I forgot to post yesterday!
eh, i'll just post twice today.
So, I went into work at 6 yesterday and as soon as I get there Mandy comes out and says "you want a night off?" so I said "yeaaaah"
haha
so I went back home and watched youtube videos with Jordan and Lisa. I told Lisa about the show wednesday. I hope we go because I haven't been to a show with her in a year and we used to go together all the time. Plus, Cynthia and I started talking about it and we always get over excited about things and I'm going to be disappointed if we don't get to go :[
At 9:30 I went to pick up DJ from the rec center and we went to my Mom's house. On the way there I told him to put in a CD so he put in The Academy Is... new cd. I was just sitting there singing along when I realized HE was singing along hahahha. If you knew my brother you would understand how funny that is because the only thing he ever listens to is rap music. He knew every word!

When we got to my Mom's house Zach, DJ, and I watched Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure. I'd never seen it. It was hilarious.

I'm about to go to the movies with my mom. We're either going to see Nights at Rodanth or Fireproof. Probably the 1st because I have this thing against Kirk Cameron. I'm not exactly sure what it is.

October 10

So it's not technically October 10 but I mean it basically is and I don't want to miss a day!

So, we went to the daycares this morning in 1st block and the little kids made me cry. I have no idea why but recently everytime I see little kids I start crying. It's not sad crying but it's defiantly not laughing too much crying either. Thankfully, noone noticed this morning though haha.

In Calculus everyone was complaining about how hard the new section is and how they don't understand it. I understand it though. Like completely. More than anything else we've done in there. It makes me feel smart. Which probably makes me really geeky. But I really don't care.

Oh, and I cut a pineapple in half by myself at work. :]
you don't understand how happy that makes me

Magic.

If you don't think that your job is the best job there is then it's probably not the best job for you.

The day that we change.

I didn't go to school today and then when I went to the doctor I couldnt even get an appointment because my mom hasnt got my insurance card yet!
I need medicine to stop coughing!!

I hate feeling ashamed of people that I care so much for. Do you really think you need to go that far to make people like you? I don't know it's just disappointing.

Molecules.

Today as I was washing my hands at school I noticed how amazing the little molecules looked as I quickly took my hands out from the faucet. The tiny beads of water that formed and then quickly disappeared were beautiful.
I don't know, it was just one of those "I'm alive, being alive is great, life is beautiful" moments.

In other news, I played hide and seek with Lisa, Jordan, and DJ tonight. It was actually refreshing. I'm glad I don't feel like I'm too cool/too old to do stuff like this.

I realized that my soul mate is the older brother from ICarly. Not the actor, the actual character. I mean it sucks because it's unlikely that it will work out. Ugh, I guess I'll have to settle for someone other than my soul mate. I'm so weird. But seriously everything that guy does makes me say "I'd married him right now." over and over.

I want to meet someone in real life that makes me feel that way.

Pink Lemonade.

Woke up, took shower, work
Went to Tokyo Express with Micha then the mall.
I bought a purple wallet and bought Micha a cat mask. It's cute.

So, I have about 10 dollars right now. Sucks.

I always have interesting stuff to put in here but when actually try to post, I can't remember anything.
figures

Who's to say.

I feel like crap. My throat is a lot worse and I can barely talk.
At least it sounds funny when I sing. Which amuses me way more than it should.

ughughugh

My throat and head hurt so bad. Ugh, with the exception of the last 2 winters I've had brochitis every year since 6th grade.

Just got home from work. It was ok. School was good.

It's weird because I've always hated going to school. But not once have I hated it this year. It's strange.
Which is unfortunate since it's my last year.

I want these boots Cynthia was telling me about so bad.

Say Anything and Saves the Day better be coming to Greene Street this year or I'm going to be pissed.

Samson.

I haven't listened to Regina Spektor in such a long time.
Amazingamazingamazing.
I need a new Ipod. Ugh, I wish mine hadn't broke.
3rd block is hilarious.

I want to meet somebody who completly takes my breath away.

I'll write a real blog soon. I just can't really think of anything right now.

Fun.

Greene Street was so great tonight.
En Serenade! I love them everytime I see them.
Red Car Wire-Great
Never Shout Never-kdjfl so so so amazing. acoustic. clapping.snapping. sing alongs. ekkk.
I've had my license for a week and I've already been to Greene Street twice and I want to go sunday to see Ailyne.

I can't remember the last time I felt so good for such a long period of time. It's refreshing.

life is great.

oh and there was an old man at walmart who had a tag on the front of his car that said "Randleman" hahaha.

Brand New

This is a brand new start.
Slate wiped clean.
etc.

I am going to write in this at least once a day.